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Jordan shouts my name, his voice shaking, but I need to get out of here. My preferred place would be the Forbidden Forest, but crowds of people are milling around and I don't want anyone following me in. I should probably go to the infirmary like Jordan suggested, but I really can't be bothered. It's not worth the fuss.
Lost in a pool of thoughts, I realise my feet have automatically carried me to the common room. I can't help but wish there's no one inside, I'm not in the mood for anymore social interaction.
Thankfully, the common room is empty, besides a few people on the soafs. I don't even look at their faces, instead making a beeline for the dorms.
My dorm is also empty, and I conclude that everyone must either be completing the task still or celebrating their successes. I rip off my clothes and chuck on the first pair of pyjamas I find. I'm perfectly aware of how badly I need to wash - now I'm in a closed space I can smell myself. That can be a job for tomorrow. But for now, I climb into bed and pull the covers over my head.
And cry.
* * * * *
The first thing I notice is the feeling like I'm floating. The second, how cold it is. Ice cold in fact, enough to make hell freeze over.
As I bob along in the water I can't help but hear the eery silence. This - well, and the fact that the water stretches as far as the eye can see - tells me I'm completely and utterly alone.
It's kind of peaceful in a weird way, floating on my back staring into the black abyss above whilst focusing solely on my breaths.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
The water crashes open as something bursts out. A terrifying creature, blood thirsty and ready to hunt.
Do I play it safe, stay still and hope it doesn't see me? Or do I go straight for the defence.
I instinctively go for my wand but it's missing and the creature sights me. Panic enters my body.
In. Out.
In. Out.
In. Out.
Not knowing what else to do I start swimming, knowing full well this beast is a lot faster than me. There's also nothing in sight, nothing I'm swimming towards. But I can't go without trying.
In. Out. In. Out. In. Out.
Teeth sink into my leg. Pain surges through my entire body and I can't help but shriek.
In out in out in out.
It bites harder and then jerks back under the water.
In out in
I'm submerged.
I thrash and fight with all my strength as the beast pulls me deeper and deeper but every time that I do its teeth sink further into my leg. The pain is excrutiating. I'm not strong enough to overpower the monster.
My lungs feel like they're on fire as they scream for oxygen, and I begin to realise that this is how it's going to end.
And this time, no one's coming to save me.
"Naz? Naz!"
The monster's voice bounces around my head.
"Naz!"
Even as life slowly but surely fades from me, I can't enjoy silence.
"NAZ!"
My eyes snap open. I'm dripping wet, but it's a lot stickier and warmer than water... sweat?
"Naz?" My eyes focus and find Persephone staring at me, her brows arched and her face full of concern. "Are you okay?"
Then it dawns on me. I was in bed, in the dorm. Safe. Definitely not being dragged under water by a kelpie.
"Naz, talk to me!"
"I'm alright. I'm alright!"
"Yeah, I totally believe you."
"I am, just a bad dream." I say slowly, trying to slow my breathing.
"Anything you want to talk about?"
"Not really."
"Tell me!"
"I'm fine, really."
"I know there's something wrong so just tell me!" her voice was full of demand.
"Oh, just erm... just imagining Niklaus winning the tournament. No biggie. Did I wake you?"
Perspehone looks extremely skeptical, but answers my question. "Yeah, you were screaming a bit. And then kinda making some weird gargling noise. It was... well weird."
"I'm sorry." I mumble, genuinely apologetic. Not the fact that I'd woken her up, more that I felt guilty towards myself.
Then I notice something really has grabbed my legs. I bolt upright, pulling my legs up to my chest. "It's got me, Seff it's got me!"
"Huh, what? Naz, it's just your blanket. Chill." Persephone takes the blanket that had wrapped itself around my legs and folds it neatly at the end of my bed. "Merlin's beard Naz, how did you get that mark on your leg?"
"Oh, I don't know, it's nothing.
"It really doesn't look like nothing. I think you should go get it checked out. Like, now."
"The matron already looked at it." I lie. "It's fine."
"Well then let me try a spell to make it better!"
"Can you please keep it down. Some of us our trying to sleep!"
Both of us glance to the other side of the room. Tamsin is sat up, looking rather pissed off. I mutter an apology, but Persephone snaps at her. "Shut up Tamsin, it's none of your business so go back to sleep." Tamsin shoots Persephone a dirty look, before realising there's no point starting anything at this hour. She lies down again and is snoring again within seconds, and Persephone turns her attention back towards me.
I get the first word in though - "Please, go back to bed. I'm fine, I promise." She really doesn't look like she believes me and I don't blame her - I certainly wouldn't accept it if it was the other way round.
"I know you're lying. Just talk to me when you're ready, okay?"
I nod and seeming to have just about satisfied her for now, Persephone slips back into her own bed.
It takes longer than it did with Tamsin, but I eventually hear soft sighs telling me that she's gone to sleep.
It's a shame slumber doesn't come back so easily for me.
* * * * *
"I'm just gonna stay here, but thanks."
"Are you sure, maybe it would do you good?"
If by good she means getting me out of the little cave I've built with my duvet, then yes it probably would do me good. But even I know I'm in no mental state to go out drinking.
"Nahh, it's okay. I'm just gonna stay here, maybe get some work done or something. You have fun though, have a butterbeer on me." She mutters something about needing a stronger drink than butterbeer and makes her goodbyes.
I'm true to my word, I do take out my notebook and begin making some defence against the dark arts notes but I just can't think straight and my notes are just a bunch of words jumbled together.
Something tells me that I might not do too well on the exams...
* * * * *
"I think this is the first time I've come into class and you've not been asleep on the desk!" Rey remarks, taking a seat next to me. It's true, as opposed to adopting my usual slumped-over-the-desk postion I'm sat stright up.
"Yeah, well don't get too used to it."
He peers at my face, concern setting in. "Are you okay, you don't look too good."
"Oh cheers, thanks."
"No, I mean... I'm sorry but you look awful."
"Such a gentlemen." But again it's true, I do look awful. I caught a sight of myself in a mirror on the way to class and I was taken aback. I'm as pale as Peeves, the only bit of colour to me being the ginormous bags under my eyes. Yeah, not a great look."
"Haven't you been sleeping again?"
"What do you think?" I snap, not really meaning to but not able to help myself either.
"No?"
"No, I haven't slept properly for the past week."
"The past week? Naz why, talk to me."
"I'm fine, just stressed about the stupid exams."
"Oh yeah sure. Seriously though, what's up?"
"Why does everyone have to assume there's something wrong." my voice going from 10 to 100. "I've told you I'm fine, so just shut up about it!"
"Naz-"
"No, I'm sick of it. Do you think we're friends or something? Because I promise you, we're not so just keep this" I point to my nose, "out of it."
"Miss Green."
"What!" I shout, not even caring that the Professor had just walked in.
"What's all the commotion about?"
"Oh just shut up you stupid old bat." Before she has the chance to send me out I'm gone, leaving behind the open jaws of my classmates. Why can't peopele just mind their own business.
I tear down the corridors, once more unsure as to where I'm going. My brain is working overtime leaving my feet to do their own thing.
"Move!" I scream at a bunch of Ravenclaw first years who are just standing in the middle of the corridor.
"Natalie."
No, now is not the time. I really, really can't be dealing with my brother. Nothing can stop me now.
"Natalie, I know what you did!" Okay, well that works. I freeze instantly and my heart rate picks up. What's he referring to, me not sleeping? Shouting at my professor?
"I can't believe you poisoned Nik! I knew you were capable of a lot of bad things, but even I didn't think-"
No. No no. How did he find out about that. How could he possibly no. I felt like I threatened that first year sufficiently enough that she wouldn't blab. Oh my gosh, what's going to happen to me now? I can honestly say I don't regret what I did, I was angry and I still am. No, I fear the consequences of my action. What I'd done, it was illegal, right? Whilst some Slytherins might be happy to spend a spell in Azkaban that's a step too far for me.
"-what were you thinking, how could you be so... so... horrible?" I finally lock eyes with Jordan. They're mad, furious even - I don't think I've ever seen him like this before.
"I have nothing to say to you, I don't regret what I did."
"Nothing to say? No regrets? How can you possibly say that?"
I shrug. "Maybe I'm just surprised you even want to be this close to me, what with me being your greatest fear and all."
"What, the bogart? I'm not scared of you, I'm scared of becoming like you. Like our parents. And right now, you're just reinforcing that fear."
"Yeah well maybe I wouldn't be like this if you hadn't been a traitor! Or maybe you just wouldn't care so much!"
"How on earth am I a traitor when you can't even support your own kind?"
"Because we used to do everything together Jord! It was always just me and you and then you decided to be a Gryffindor! Do you know how betrayed I felt? My own brother, abandoning me to go make friends with the filfthy little mud-"
"Don't you dare! Don't you dare call my friends that!"
"Why not hey? That's exactly what they are!"
"Why do you hate them so much Natalie? Why are you so angry at the world all the time?"
"Because I'm never good enough for anyone! All my life I've grown up in your shadow. And they get everything handed to them on a platter. I work so hard to be good at magic and it's never enough. Not compared to you and certainly not compared to them."
My voice is hoarse from shouting and I can no longer keep back the tears. Surprisingly, Jordan looks worried. Lowering his own voice, he asks - "Is that really how you feel?" I nod. "But you're a more than capable witch Natalie, you just don't try-"
"How would you know? You're not in any of my lessons, you're always too busy with those mudblood friends of yours-"
"Stop!"
"Why should I? Because you're changed and don't think they're bad people? We grew up in the same place Jordan, you heard what mother and father said. How can you possibly go against our beliefs?"
"Because they're not true! It's such a destructive way of thinking!"
"Yeah well that's me, destructive right! I've destroyed most of my friendships, I've destroyed you apparently and now I'm going to destroy any chance of actually leaving here with any qualifications!"
Jordan remains silence, replacing his anger with confusion. "What do you mean, we've not even had the exams yet?"
"I can't stop thinking about the kelpies and what happened."
"But it was just a simulation!"
"I'm messed up okay! I can't stop thinking about it. I'll be going about my day and I'll just forget how to breathe. I haven't slept in a week, every time I close my eyes I'm living through it again. I just- I just can't I can't do it."
My body is no longer able to take my issues and I feel myself sink to the ground. Jordan is quick though, rushing forward to catch me. Together we crouch on the floor, me sobbing uncontrollably whilst he hugs me tightly.
* * * * *
"So yeah, I'm sorry."
Rey looks at me, emotionless. I have absolutely no idea what he's thinking. Zilch.
All eyes at the Ravenclaw table are on me. Normally I'd be humiliated. But I know I overstepped the mark and despite what I said earlier, Rey really is a good friend. One that I hope I've not lost.
"What you said, it really did hurt me." So I have blown our friendship. I'd already told him that I really didn't mean what I'd said, I'm just both physically and mentally exhausted and it's taking a real toll."
"Go on Rey, tell her to get lost." a guy across the table shouts. He clearly doesn't like me very much. To be honest, I'm not sure I really like myself.
"Shall we go somewhere more private?" Rey suggests.
"Yes please..."
He stands up and the heads towards the doors, myself following. I lock eyes with Bliase who pulls a face as if to say 'what the hell', but I don't stop to say anything. Instead, I follow Rey into one of the empty classrooms opposite the Great Hall.
"So yeah, what you said really hurt me-"
"I'm really sor-"
"But I know something is really wrong with you Naz and I think that concerns me more."
My heart skips a beat, "So we're still friends?"
"Yes, though if you try anything like that again I'll probably use the horn tongue hex on you. Now, what's going on?"
"I'm honestly fine." I say, attempting to pull a convincing smile. "I really am stressed about exams, and the stuff with my brother and his friends isn't really helping."
"I'm afraid I can't really help you with the latter, besides suggesting you just leave them alone. But, you know you can always come to me if you need help with studying. The offer still stands you know, you can come to our group-"
"I really don't think that's my cup of pumpkin juice, but thanks."
"Well, perhaps some one on one help then? Oh wait, that reminds me!"
Rey fumbles around in his bag and hands me a tall, dark bottle.
"What's this?" I ask, examining the bottle.
"A Sleeping Draught. After you stormed out of potions I scrapped the rest of the lesson. Made that instead."
My face immeditaley softens, I'm both surprised and touched. "Wait, you made this for me? Even after what I said to you?"
"Yeah, well like I said. I was more worried about what was wrong. Hopefully a good sleep will help."
And it certainly did.
* * * * *
As with any exam season, the library is packed - I'd had to stand over a Hufflepuff student until my presence made him so uncomfortable he decided to leave. Though I'm trying my best to concentrate on my revision all I can focus on are the snippets of conversations happening around me - some girl admitting she really likes some guy and someone else complaining about his parents.
"How you doing?"
My head snaps up, and I find myself staring at Jordan. He looks tired, really tired.
"Better, thanks." I whisper back. I look back down at my divination notes, presuming that our conversation is now over. I've not spoken to him last week, if I'm honest I've been avoiding him.
"That's... good. You look better."
"Well like I said, I am."
"So sleeping okay?"
"Yes." I' not exactly lying, I am sleeping better. Though that may be because I'm relying on the Sleeping Draught, which prevents dreams. Though saying that, I have been seeing the counsellor and she's been helping too I suppose.
"Why do you care, Jord?"
He stares at me silently, looking slightly taken aback by my question. "We're family, Natalie."
"Yeah, but that doesn't mean sh*t." I hiss back.
He shifts uncomfortably. "Well, you're the only family I have a chance of saving."
Now it's my turn to be shocked. Saved from what?
Jordan must sense my confusion. "I think deep, deep down you're a good person Natalie. And that person is the sister I want."
He looks at me, a great deal of sadness in his eyes, before going back to his own seat across the room. My own eyes follow him, watching as Nela talks to him in a hushed voice. I can't hear what she's saying but after a few moments she turns to face me and... smiles? Only for a few seconds, but definitely a smile in my direction.
It's something I don't return. Instead I sit here, milling over Jordan's words. It suddenly dawns on me what he meant.
He wants to save me from myself.
* * * * *
My conversation with Jordan remains in my mind for the rest of the day. Am I really a bad person? It's something I would never have even considered before today. Sure, I have strong opinions, but so does half the wizarding world. It's not my fault that the other have refuse to accept thema s true. And sure, I'm short-tempered and will do literally anything to get my way, but they're not bad traits. At least, I don't think so.
I'm snapped from my thoughts as I step into the common room, finding Persephone and Blaise in deep conversation. I've not really seen Blaise properly over the past few weeks, not deliberately. We've both just been super busy with exam prep, and he's been spending some time with that Gemma, so we've only really seen each other at meal times. I've seen even less of Persephone, though I'd purposely been avoiding her. I wouldn't ever admit it out loud, but I'm embaressed after that dream.
"That half-blood scum won't be bothering you any more..."
"Huh? Wait... who's messing with you Seff?" I demand. I may have been staying away from her, but she's still a friend and if someone's hurt her... well then I'd need to hurt them.
Persephone shakes her head as I settle down on the sofa next to Blaise, looking at her expectantly.
"No one is messing with me." she insists.
"Definitely not anymore." I can't help but be confused by their coded conversations. Blaise picks up on this, and explains all.
"What!?" I shriek. It's the only thing I can think to say. How could Persephone be falling for all of this? I thought she was smart, and definitely on our side.
I glance at Persephone, expecting her to defend herself or say Blaise had it wrong. But I don't even think she's listening, instead lost in a world of her thoughts. Eventually she realises we're both staring at her - "What?"
"Not even going to thank your big brother for looking out for you?"
"Really? I thought we put an end to that whole thing in the simulation... when I told you I didn't know he was a pureblood..."
"Really, I thought so too but then Tamsin pointed out that he approached you again and well... I made sure he knew without a doubt how things stood..."
"So let me get this straight, you are sitting here over reacting to a situation where you claim some guy is trying to manipulate me, which he didn’t and cant... while your whole response it predicated on being manipulated by some chick..?"
"What? I'm not being manipulated..."
"Of course you are... there was no good reason for her to go to you with that bit of drama, probably thought you would look on her kindly for speaking to you about it, I bet you even thanked her for looking out for me..."
"She was being helpful!"
Persephone looks at me as if she suddenly remembered I'm here. I'm not entirely sure what to say. Part of me thinks this is a brother-sister thing and I have no real place voicing my concerns. But then... Persephone can't be with a halfblood. Just the thought makes me feel queasy.
There is one thing I agree on with Persephone though: Tamsin is a sneaky little b*tch.
"All I know, is that you and I agreed in the simulation that there was nothing to worry about but with a few whispered words from Miss Busybody you’re off to make a scene by confronting the guy... over something that didn’t even happen or matter... or whatever..."
"So what did happen then?" I blurt out before I even think about saying it.
"Does it even matter? I thought he was insignificant..."
"Fine." Blaise huffs. "But regardless, you shouldn’t have any problems with him any more..."
Persephone's response drips in sarcasm. "Cool. Now maybe if you really want to help me with an actual problem you will help me figure out who set me the bloody hell up..."
Blaise snorts as he stands up - "No, too much work." He wanders off, abandoning me with a clearly pissed off Persephone.
I just can't even begin to comprehend it. What's Persephone thinking, getting involved with someone so... so... unworthy? I look at her out of the corner of my eyes. She's pretty, prettier than me arguably. She can do so, so much better.
Please, I beg Persephone. Leave alone.
* * * * * *
"Hey, can I sit here?" I ask hesitantly. Sidh looks up, needing to bring his hand up to his face to shield the sun. When he realises it's me standing before him, he looks quite surprised. He nods, and I take a seat on the bench beside him.
"Thought you couldn't stand to me around me?"
"I can't, that's why I'm sitting." I attempt to joke. He doesn't seem to find it funny.
"What do you want Naz?"
"Well, believe it or not I'm here to apologise."
"You? Apologise? Are you feeling okay?"
"Actually, I am. I'm probably doing the best I've done in awhile to be honest."
"That's good, that's really good."
He gives what seems to be a genuine smile. I'm being completely honest, I am doing well. Besides the whole thing with Persephone and her choice in men, and of course all of the exams, I'm doing okay. Talking to the counsellor is really helping, and I'm slowly relying on the Sleeping Draught less and less.
"Look, I'm really sorry for how I've treated you over the past couple of months. I'm sorry that I' threw my drink over you, and well, just generally treated you like a house elf." Sidh stays silent for a moment, before a small smile begins to show on his face.
"What you did wasn't cool, but I'm not guilt free either?"
"You're not?" I ask, an eyebrow raised.
"No. My actions clearly hurt you, I should have stuck up for you when the whole Nela thing was going on."
I nod in acknowledgement. All of that feels like so long ago now, it almost seems silly that Sidh and I haven't been on good terms in so long. I stretch my arms out behind me and tilt my head back, basking like a snake in the sun.
"What happened to us Sidh?"
"Hey, breakups are messy." he responds, digging his elbow into my waist. I can't help but smile.
"Yeah, but afterwards we were friends." I pause, thinking about what I'd said. "Are..?" I say both slowly and unconfidently.
Sidh nods at me in encouragement. "Are."
We sit for a while, my head resting on his shoulder whilst we talk about all that had happened over the past couple of months.
"I know it's probably not your cup of pumpkin juice, but me and some friends are having a picnic down by the lake at the weekend if you want to join?"
"Why wouldn't that be my thing?" I ask, confused. "Waaait, who's going?"
"Jordan. And Nik and Nela. It would mean a lot to Jordan if you came." He rushes over the other two names, almost as if he's hoping my brain wouldn't have enough time to register them. But it does. Throughout our catching-up Sidh had failed to mention he'd befriended the mudbloods.
"Hmmm." Is all I can say.
* * * * *
"Jordan!" I call down the corridor, my legs racing to keep up with him. Thankfully, he stops. So does the blonde girl who was walking next to him.
"Natalie?"
"Hi." I say, slightly out of breath. Apparently I need to get fitter. "Can I talk to you a sec? Please."
"Erm... yeah sure. Can you give us a minute?" The latter is directed at the blonde. She nods her head, then beams at me. Weirdo.
"Who's that?" I ask once she's stepped away.
"Oh... er... my friend... Freida."
"Oh, okay. Well I heard you're having a little picnic this weekend?"
"Huh? Oh yeah, it's more meant to be a training session for Nik but it's turned into a massive picnic thing too, you know what Nela's like."
"Yep, I sure do." I mutter, unknowing as to whether Jordan hears.
"Did Sidh tell you?"
"Yup."
"So are you coming?"
I slip my hands into my pockets and shift uncomfortably. "No-"
"I knew it, I just knew it! You really can't get over this hate for muggle-borns can you! I was such a fool for thinking-"
"Oi!" I shout, cutting him off midsentence. "I mean, you're not wrong. I'm not coming because I don't want to be around them. But if you'd let me finish, I was actually going to suggest we do something, like, together?"
Jordan's expression is priceless. "Me and you?"
"That's what together means." I murmour, rolling my eyes slightly. He composes himself.
"Sorry I- I just never thought we'd be at a place where we would be doing stuff together. I never thought you'd want to!"
I sigh heavily. "Look, I haven't got all day. Do you want to or not?"
"Of course I do."
"Good. Well, bye." I splutter, and hurriedly walk off. No need for it to get all soppy now is there.
* * * * *
"Ermm, dragonfly thoraxes, doxy eggs, flying seahorses and... and... ooh fairy wings!" I cry excitedly. For such a simple potion I always seem to forget the ingredients. It seems like Rey didn't notice my struggle though, in fact he doesn't even seem to be listening.
"Hello, earth to Rey." I say, waving my hand infront of his face. He blinks and snaps out of his thoughts, physically shaking himself.
"Sorry, zoned out there for a second."
"Yeah I could tell. What's up?" He shrugs, but I'm persistant. "Tell me, I might be able to help."
"Well, it is something I could pick your brains on actually." He leans forward and brings his face only a few inches from mine. "Women." he whispers.
"You don't need to make us sound so terrifying Rey!" I snort. I quickly pull myself together though, as the look on his face tells me he might be regretting his decision to talk to me. "Sorry, sorry. What's your women trouble?"
"Well, woman actually. What does it mean when a girl kisses you, and it's completely out of the blue?"
"What do you think it means?" I say sarcastically.
"Well, that's the thing, I'm not quite sure."
"No wonder you've got women trouble then." I say, laughing again. Once again, Rey looks hurt. "I'm sorry, you know I can't help it! Context?"
He explains the situation to me, that it felt like she was making a point in their little debate. But then he explained what the kiss was like.
"Yeah, I think she likes you." I say, grinning.
"Really? How comes I never noticed before?"
"Because you're a guy and guys are literally oblivious to everything."
"No we're not." he says sulkily, but the look on his face tells me I'm not wrong.
"So who's the lucky girl?" I sing.
"Like I'm going to tell you!"
"Do I know her."
"Believe it or not Naz, I don't keep track of who you know and don't know."
Then it hits me. A memory from a few weeks back in the library. Some girl said she really liked some guy. That 'some guy' was Rey, she'd mentioned Rey.
"Oh my gosh I know who it is!" I squeal, slapping him on the arm. "It's that Ravenclaw girl isn't it." Nothing. "Jules?" Still nothing. "Jude?"
Bingo. Rey's face burns bright red and though he doesn't say anything my answer is confirmed.
"Oh my gosh it is isn't! It was Jules that kissed you. Oh she definitely likes you I overheard her talking about you in the library. So do you like her?" I'm perfectly aware I'm talking at a hundred miles per hour but the idea of a girl liking Rey - and him possibly liking her back - excites me. I was beginning to think he was gay. Which I'm totally cool with, by the way.
"I'm not really sure to be honest..."
"How can you not be sure. It's simple, you either like her or you don't!"
"Yeah well I just don't know."
"Urgh guys are rubbish! You know she's not pure though, right?"
"Yeah, I know. That kind of stuff doesn't bother me."
"Okay, well suit yourself." I close my book, shove it into my bag and stand. Rey looks slightly annoyed.
"You're not seriously leaving because she's not pureblood are you?"
"No." I say, matter of factly. "Actually, I'm meeting my brother."
His anger fades and turns to what I can only describe as a mix of shock and confusion. "Your brother?"
"Yep, good old Jordan."
"Why?"
"I don't know, figured it might be good to have some kind of relationship with him."
And with that, I wiggle my fingers at him and make my exit.
* * * * *
"Why are we just talking about all the bad things I did!"
"Erm, because you were far worse behaved than me. You still are!"
"Hey!" I squeal defensively. "Don't you remember the time you stole those sweets from Sugarplums?"
"You're seriously comparing that to the time you turned that girl's head into a pumpkin just because she wouldn't let you go on the swings?"
"Hey, I was 6! I didn't know how to share!"
"You still don't!"
Both Jordan and I look at each, our quantity of laughter matching. It had truly been a wonderful afternoon; we had strolled down to Hogsmeade (well, we made it about halfway before someone (me) complained that their feet ached) and spent the whole time reminiscing about times before we grew apart. We'd spent a lot of time laughing, and now my sides noticeably hurt.
"Don't go telling anyone this, but today has actually been great."
Though I didn't think it possible, Jordan's smile gets even wider. "Yeah, it really has. We should do this more often you know, even if it's just sitting in the gardens and having a catch up."
"I'd like that." I reply, also smiling.
"You know, you're almost a completely different person when you're outside of Hogwarts and don't have your army of snakes with you. I'm amazed."
If he was amazed by that, he would certainly be amazed by what's coming. As we round the corner I spot Sidh. Kissing Nela.
"You little cockroach!" I shriek, throwing my wand only a few inches from Nela's face. "You just have to steal everything don't you!" She doesn't even flinch.
"Aren't you over this yet?" Nela asks, sounding bored.
"ARGHHH! Slugulus eruc-" but before I can finish the curse my arms are pinned flung behind my back and my wand flies across the corridor.
"Natalie stop it! Please don't ruin today."
"Why can't I ruin today when they're ruining my life!" I scream.
"I really don't see what the issue is here." Nela comments. "We're both consenting adults who are mature enough to handle ourselves."
I break free of Jordan's grip and take a step towards the couple. "I hope you both rot in Hell! And you" I say, staring straight at Sidh, "don't even bother coming back to the common room because you sure as hell won't be welcome when the others hear of this!"
* * * * *
"Still not coming?" Tamsin asks. The group are all standing by the door ready to leave, whilst I'm reclined on the sofa.
"No point. Not like I want any of them to win."
The main reason I don't want to watch the final task is because I'm still not completely over the last one. The counsellor says I'm making a lot of progess moving on from it, and I really don't want to undo that. And like I said, I really don't care who wins. As long as it's not Niklaus, I'm really not arsed.
The group say their farewells and leave me all alone in the common room. I don't need them anyway. I can entertain myself for a couple of hours.
"I just can't believe it. It literally couldn't have been anyone worse." Blaise shouts, a door slamming behind him.
I bolt upright and stare at the group as they storm in, all of them looking angry.
"Huh? What happened?" I question.
"The mudblood won."
The task was over? Did I really just spend however many hours looking at shapes in the ceiling?
My initial surprise of their return quickly fades as realisation sinks in. "WAIT! Niklaus won the task? He's our Triwizard Champion?"
"Yes, though he's certainly not mine-"
"Nor mine." a bunch of other people chime.
"-it literally couldn't have gone to someone more unworthy. I tell you, if they're allowing the likes of him to win then it's not long before they take over."
"H-how? How could this happen?" my volume begins to rise in correlation with my anger. No. I am not having this. A mudblood couldn't have won. No.
It should have been me. I'm worthy.
"And of course the crowds went crazy when it was announced, it was pathetic. You should have seen your scum of a brother Naz!"
"My brother? What about him?"
"He was so happy he kissed the girl he was with, and jumped so high he practically crushed the person in front of him."
"Do you know who it was?"
"Just some guy."
"No not who he crushed, the girl he kissed."
"Oh, some blonde girl called Freya."
I look confused. "Freya? Do you mean Freida?"
"Nope it's definitely Freya, she's in my defence against the dark arts class." Tamsin comments.
Oh. I see what's going on. Now it makes sense why Jordan was acting so shifty when he told me about Freida. Because Freida isn't real. That blonde girl was Freya. The Freya he'd been penpals with for however many years.
Muggleborn Freya.
Jordan - my own brother - is in love with a mudblood.
I rise suddenly, feeling sick to the stomach. Someone jeers that I'm about to kick off but I don't see who - I only see red.
I stumble into the dorm, rage surging through my body.
Sid's with a mudblood.
A mudblood won the Triwizard Tournament.
My brother's with a mudblood.
Mudbloods are taking over.
Sid's with a mudblood.
A mudblood won the Triwizard Tournament.
My brother's with a mudblood.
Mudbloods are taking over.
Sid's with a mudblood.
A mudblood won the Triwizard Tournament.
My brother's with a mudblood.
Mudbloods are taking over.
The four thoughts circle round my brain and as I tear the dorm apart I get more and more worked up.
By the time I'm finshied the room is unrecognisible, and one of the beds is on fire.